She left us

Last Christmas, I blogged about my grandma.

26.12.2009 was the last day I called my grandma.

14.01.2010 night, after work around 10.30pm, mum told me grandma vomited and didn't had appetite for 2 days .

Friday 15.01.2010 5 am, my grandma passed away in her sleep. She was found cold and hard in her bed at 7am. ='(

Mum called me and told me about the bad news at 8am.


She'll always be in my heart. I'm back at kl, came back from KT from the funeral yesterday, but is still too sad and found my eyes welled up with tears whenever I think of her laughter, her favourite phrase (唔讲唔得笑), her teaching me wrap bakzhang, her queuing up with me to buy McD's sundae cone when I was young... Dun have mood to continue to blog about it...

Grandma.. Rest in peace.

Grandma XOXO

Heard from mum that grandma fell down and hurt her front tooth yesterday. And recently she had been telling my mum and dad where she puts her important stuff, sounds like last words.. Makes me worried about her soo much.



Today I woke up in the morning and memories of me and grandma flashed through my mind, and god knows when the tears welled up my eyes.

Her holding my tiny hand to cross the road when I was 7.
Her washing my hair, scratched until the skin of my head felt so painful, when I was 5.
Her suggesting to eat Mc Donald's sundae cone (her favourite) and me and bro sprinted towards the counter delightfully, when I was 10.
Her teaching me how to make a bakzhang when I was 23.
Her eating breakfast with me, mum and dad and how she scooped away the bubbles on top of the milo.
Her smiling sheepishly when was caught by dad that she climbed up the roof to mend the TV satellite when she was 70 years old.
Her when she finally reluctantly let my mum holds her hands when she walks (coz she doesn't want to be dependent)
Her insisting to buy me a dress when she saw my eyes lay on that pretty dress
Her being so optimistic after grandpa passed away. Never had I seen her cried although she showed a tinge of sorrow and loneliness for a period of time. She lived strong and independently.
Her telling me how nice her new top is and babbling about where she bought it, how much was it, how come she likes it and most important of all asked me how she looks in the dress, cheerful like a kid.
Her exclaiming a cute kid "奇怪" instead of "可爱" due to poor Chinese vocabulary. She speaks Cantonese.
Her attending my graduation and was excited about the opening ceremony.

Grandma lives her life optimistically despite some people around giving her heartaches. I always see her laughing and talking and babbling as if it's another normal day even though she's facing problems which I think its pretty tricky.

I hope she will live longer, long enough to see me get married. Long enough to hold my children. Sigh. Take care, my grandma... So worried..

The new swimsuit made my day

Bought a Speedo swimsuit which I had been watching since few weeks ago for only RM70 last night! But I seriously have no idea how to wear it without tearing the threads or breaking the stripes. Sigh. I duwan to break the swimsuit before I even have the chance to use it. Advices needed. lol..

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Went to swim again today. With the new swimsuit. It's comfortable swimming with them. And I look nice wearing them too! Just that the wearing and taking off takes damn a lot of patience and time. And there's risk of breaking the stripes. -.-
Swimming always bring calm and serenity to me.
Another RM3. Another 1km. Another 45 minutes. As usual, steadier breaths after swim makes me feel so much healthier.

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It's school holiday! Having lighter traffic and hence leaving home for work a bit later, I have no excuse to skip my jogging practice in the morning, do I? But I still can't get up slightly early for a jog. -.- My sleepy bug is way too stronger than me. =P

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Sales and promotions are everywhere but all I can do is just stare at the nice clothes and shoes. Sigh. What to do. I have to save the money for my Korean class. Talking about Korean class, it's June now! Which means it's getting closer to the class commencement. =)

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I scratched my car again...
This time when I was reverse parking. I've always been confident with my reverse parking skills. But last night, I was slightly dizzy and unwell. I didn't see the side mirror properly. I had a patch of white on my car now. Sigh. Heart pain ah..

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Can't wait for this weekend to come. I've been waiting for IW since the beginning of this year. Finally it's coming soon. I know I will enjoy it. =)

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It's either I've grown old and have no energy or I'm really that busy, I've spent more than two month to watch a Korean drama with only 25 episodes. And I'm yet to finish it. Still have half episode. lol.. Funny how I'm not as addictive as last time. But the problem is: Where did I spend my extra time not watching dramas? Self studying Korean language I guess. I've been spending 1 hour per day to learn Korean from a book.

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So glad that Chen has finished his studies and can finally have some rest and go for vacation. I'm always the one who go here and there. Pity him having to work days and nights on FYP throughout the year. Hope he's having fun now. =)

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Recently there are quite a lot of nice English songs. Kiss me through the phone by Soulja Boys. Mad by Neyo. Hatin' on the club by Rihanna. Poker Face by Lady Gaga.

But today I feel like sharing this music video, Halo by Beyonce.

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All right. Have to sleep now. Else I'll have excuses for not waking up earlier for a jog tomorrow. Hehe..

Healthy day

Today is a healthy day! I finally got my butt out of my room! This is a big move (snicker).

Managed to wake up early at 7 something, had some milo and off to a one hour jog at the field nearby. I only jogged 5 rounds (and walked many rounds) but I feel so much better! Since I started to learn swimming, I found that if I stop exercising for more than 2 weeks I'll feel like having short breaths. I feel like my lungs have shrunk.

I actually planned to go Tian Hou Kong since weekdays. And I didn't plan to go with anyone. I just wanna go there and visit Ma Zhu and come back. But Keen called up asking for Microsoft Office CD. So, I brought him along with me. He brought camera. lol.


We had fun camwhoring. Especially at the rooftop. Hehe.. Coz no one was there, so we can set up timer and take as many pictures we can. =P We brought so liveliness to the temple. =D



The first thing you should do if you wanna act like a monkey like me. lol


The theme for this picture is "rich si lai". Did I meet the theme?


Serenity..


Act cool. lol


(Click to enlarge coz I have no idea why it came out so small)



This is taken by me. Nice? Got feel or not? Hehe...


Then met up bro at PJ to take some stuff from him. Had a quick lunch with him and his ex-boss. Had some quick chat with him. Although din have much to talk with him as usual, but seeing him in person made my day. I'm happy to see him and am still proud of him doing what he is good at and interested in. =)

When I'm back home, I felt very exhausted already. Had a good nap later. It was such a relaxing and healthy day! =)

But I feel muscle sore at my waist now. Guess I got it from jogging and jumping too much at the temple. Sei la. Tomorrow still have to go Gunung Dato' for a day hike tim. Haha. But it's ok. I need more endurance training for my KK trip. So, I cant complain. lol.

On the Nth day of 2009

On the first day of 2009, I went to Midvalley with Zhuang, Mei and my aunts. Had a healthy spaghetti carbonara without cream at Yogitree and then indulged myself with a very creamy mocha frappuccino at Starbucks afterwards.

On the second day of 2009, I went back to my previous home to do some errands and found that I miss the laughter of those innocent kids in the swimming pool just right outside my room window. And I miss the swimming pool, too.

On the third day of 2009, I watched a very heartwarming movie, Ip Man. About the legend of China's Wing Chun kungfu during the Second Sino-Japanese War. Something inside was feeling relieved when those Japanese were beaten up. Got myself a cardigan, too. Whose shopping genes do I inherited from? I dunno.

On the fourth day of 2009, I'll be celebrating WY's birthday. Another indulging moment again with pasta and all.

On the fifth day of 2009, I'll be broke and start to cook dinner to work towards my new year resolution-- saving money.

Randoms

Just met mum yesterday! =) Brought her to Pavilion and treated her lunch and tea. Only two of us for the first time. I love the time we hang out together. Feel really really warm in my heart. =) Hope I can do the same thing with my dad one day. Hehe.

Oh and yesterday went repair my car because the car was really noisy when I drive up to only 30-40km/hr. It was the gear box. It sounded like a truck! lol. Plus the brake pads were also exhausting due to lousy quality of local vehicles. They had solidified and powdered already. The repair costs me more than a thousand ringgit. I'm officially broke now. Again.

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Was looking for Korean drama. Then I found Iljimae which was filmed in 2007 and released this year. Still looking for place to download. Hopefully can get the drama. The main character in this drama is filmed by Lee Jun Ki who acts as a Robinhood at night but a naughty guy in the day time. I think it is going to be funny and sad in this drama.



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With so many public holidays drawing near. I'm currently under holiday mood. =P I miss those school times when I can have months of holiday. Holiday is a luxury for me now. Sigh. Grown up life is so so so different. How I hope I can go back to childhood time. lol.

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Oh gosh. I keep running to toilet today! It's something I ate yesterday or the day before. I remember I started having stomach cramp and feel like diarrhea since yesterday morning right after I woke up. Add up together with yesterday I ran to toilet for almost 10 times already. Sigh. Need some 保济丸 if you know what it is.

Sunburn from kayaking

Humph! It's a busy and tiring day!

kayak with Raleigh people.

All these kayaks had to be carried from the storeroom which is 100+m away from the lakeside. Summore some of the kayaks are very heavy. My arms are aching now because of this (not because of kayaking)

It's my first kayak experience. We had a kayak guide who taught us how to paddle and the hand signals for kayaking. Everyone is listening to the briefing except me who was dozing off. Hehe.

Then after that we were 'thrown' into the water to practice our water confidence. We had to turn and somersault in the water. Oh ya! And we had to learn switching side from one side of the kayak to another in the water.

Then we can start kayaking! But I didn't really master the technique of kayaking, I just couldn't keep my kayak straight when I move forward! See where I'm going?

Then we formed a line with our kayaks. It was fun!

Another line.

I got pretty serious sunburn on my face now. I look like the Santa Clause's Rudolph reindeer now. Why? Because I'm having a really red nose (from sunburn) and red cheeks! =( Tomorrow it's gonna turn dark. Sigh...

Raleigh is always filled with high spirits =) Even our kayak guide (at the very right) also joined in happily with us. hehe... [Picture taken from Richard Teh's FB]


Then after that I rushed back to OUG for my tuition. And I collected some stuff placed at my aunt's house which was brought by my brother from hometown. I didn't unpack them until I'm back. I just saw a harddisk box in the plastic bag. I remember mum told me they are going to give me mum's unused internal harddisk. So I was expecting they put the old harddisk into the box.

Then when I came back and opened it, inside the box is a brand new 500GB external harddisk!

OMG! I was so confused I called up mum and asked her why was the external harddisk here. She told me it was the birthday present from herself and my bro and his girlfriend. Awww.. I'm soooo touched! I felt my tears welling up.

Oh by the way, I think my legs are going to fall apart. But kayaking doesn't use much leg muscles right? Hmm. I dunno what's wrong with it. Maybe I walked too much? lol. Oh! Or was it the jog I had the day before yesterday? That was my longest jog I had in my life. And guess how many km? 1.5km only. keke.. The second longest jog was with Ching Wan last time during A Levels. We jogged around the football field for around 3-4 times and I was already knocked out. I'm so proud I made to 1.5km this time. Haha. I know I'm very lousy.

My goodness the marathon is like one month away and I am still not sure whether I can make it for 10km. Please, give me the perseverence and determination to proof to myself that I can run 10km. =)


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Now I'm happily eating mum's gong zai beng! =D

Something there is very big lo... 18SX or not? Heee.. Gotcha!!


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Tonight, I'm gonna make full use of the weekend to have a 100% beauty sleep to rest my berkecai-kecai punya leg. Muahaha.


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JJ new songs are nice! Especially the 小酒窝 with Ah Sa. Thumbs up!



I also like the rapping part of this song called 不潮不用花钱. (I thought it is supposed to be 不愁不用花钱? Hmmm) Plus. The lyrics is very non-sense. No meaning at all one especially the rapping part. But the rapping part tune is nice. =) It's at the very last part.




Updated 10 November 2008 7.59pm

The vintage style birthday dinner

This picture says it all.

We had a dinner at Pizza Uno Taipan to celebrate Shi Yun's birthday. That was my suggestion. Keke. Coz Pyramid is really boring to us already. lol.

I didn't know it had shifted to another row of shophouses in Taipan. Just one row behind the old one. Same row as KFC in Taipan facing the mainroad. And it is now bigger and more spacious compared with the old Uno.

We took quite a lot of pictures this time. Hehe. Because the ambiance in this restaurant is really comfortable.

5 of us. CP are you missing us? Just imagine the glass on the table is you la. hehe. =P

Then we went to cut the cake at Station One in USJ.

The cake. The present. And the girls.

The performers were really lousy in singing and sort of dampen our mood a bit. We tried to talk to each other but the performers were yelling at their mics (instead of singing) and most of the time went out of tune. It was really hard to talk with such noise. In the end we yelled (I mean raised our voices) at each other so that we can hear each other.

But the waiter/waitress there were really considerate and clever. They switched off all the lights in the cafe when the cake with lighted candles was brought in front of SY. And at that same time the performers were singing birthday song and everyone was looking. lol. It was really at a good timing. But it can be bad too. Coz I wouldn't want people to turn and look at the numbers of candles on my cake. Hehe. Sorry yea SY. Hehe.

Camwhore for a while there.

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My parents just brought grandma for a body check up in JB and she was found that she has a weaker heart now and have to rely on medicine to strengten her heart. After knowing this I have a sudden urge to go home. To be with my grandma just like those old times when we sat on the couch and listen to her talking. Miss those old times when me, my bro and grandma happily sprung off from car to buy sundae cone from Mc Donald in JB whenever we went for shopping in JB. She's old at age but young at mind. She's a very open-minded grandma. Although sometimes immatured and always do funny things, she worth my respect because of all the sacrifices she had done to the family. And she is the most adventurous grandma I've seen climbing up to the 4th floor roof top to adjust the antena at her 75 years old. I miss her. Miss her cute chuckles. =)

I am sitting in front of the PC typing...

I'm very down today. I had my heart torn for him last night. I guess I hurt him. I didn't meant to hurt him. I was hoping that it could be a negative motivation for him after so many unsuccessful positive motivations I've made. I guess it did not motivate him from his response last night. It hurt him instead. So, I was torn coz I feel useless, being really useless in encouraging him. And at the same time am angry with him giving up himself.

Sigh. Sometimes, some negative emotions deep down, you need to fix it yourself. Nobody can mend it. Because it needs your determinations. I hope you can slowly fix it.

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Am at my aunt's house for mooncake festival coz I heard my brother will be coming to her house too. But, when I'm already here to stay for the weekend only he told me he is only coming for Sunday dinner. I was like..

Plus, Zhuang is out to a friend's birthday party. Left Mei who is supposed to study for her PMR. Sigh, should have stayed at home and accompany Audrey and go shopping with her. Feel sorry for her, just like I felt sorry for CP two weekends ago.

Anyway, I'm really glad that me and bro is getting closer compared with last time when we were like total strangers ever since I came here to further my studies. I'm appreciating every bit of the moments. =)

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Received an email from Nuffnang two weeks ago for a confirmation for a CPM advertisement (the Guiness ad which is showing now). Yeay! Finally! After waiting for so long. =P CPM means the pay is depending on the number of visitor per day I have in my blog.

Sigh. Too bad, my blog visitor count is not high enough to get me fruitful earnings.

But nevermind. I was surprised when a second email from Nuffnang asking for a confirmation for another CPM advertisement (this time Tiger. Another alcohol pula?). Am so excited coz at least the advertisement in my blog won't sometimes appear sometimes disappear already. The advertisement campaign will be held until 12th October! =D

Hmm.. Not so down already. Hehe. Very easy to be pleased am I? =)

P/S: What time is it now? 10.20pm? But I'm hungry already.. =(

Happy Merdeka weekend =)

Am writing this post with my aunt's PC now. Hehe. I stayed at my aunt's place right after giving tuition yesterday.

It's been really long since I stayed over at my aunt's. I had a great time having some girl's talk with Zhuang the whole last night. I remember the last time we talked like this was when we were still in school. Really love the moments we had last night. And it was really sweet when Zhuang didn't want to let me go when I told her that it's late we should sleep. Hehe. It's funny how two persons kept yawning but refuse to stop talking. We had so much to share with each other! I just realized last night how much I had missed her.

Today we spent a lot of time watching Grey's Anatomy and Private Practice Marathon the whole morning and night. And I think I'm starting to like their sense of humor. Especially when it is not that heavy to watch despite being a series about doctors life. I think this series has more gossips than serious stuff. Keke. Can help cheer up the day a bit. Hmm.. Maybe I should start to watch the first season.

My aunt made some white lotus mooncakes today.


Mooncakes just molded, yet to be baked.

Yummy!

I had a hot sizzling mooncake just taken out from oven. The outer layer was crusty and the lotus paste was jelly-like. Yummy! Tomorrow the mooncake outer layer will be softer and the lotus paste harder. Both texture are great. But I think I will prefer the 'incubated' overnight one. Wrong word. Incubate is for bacteria. Haha. But so what, I work in lab. Please allow me to violate this word in daily life. =P

A new phase in life unwinds

I woke up with a headache today. Actually lights off and in the bed at around 11.30pm last night. But because of an incident which I still have no idea how it happened which made me related it with some spooky and ghostly thoughts. Plus the stress level built up with the thoughts of going to a new place seeing many new faces and new tasks the next day, I just can't sleep despite shutting my eyes tight to trying to force myself to sleep.

I guess it's also the stress that put me into endless nightmares the precious night before the first day of work after I finally managed to sleep. It was about me only reporting myself to the new job 2 days late. And in the dream I went to my previous company on the day I am supposed to report to the new company. And on the second day, I went to the previous company also, then around 5pm on second day only I realized I am supposed to go to the new company. Then I got panicked. And I woke up with the fear of losing this new job before I even worked for one day. The day started with some unfamiliar-ness and ended with less unfamiliar-ness but I know the stress level is never going to abade.

It's a very different exposure for me. But I'm sure I'll be able to learn new things here. Fingers-crossed that I can cope it well.


So its curtain is opened right in front of me. The new phase of my life.

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I ended my old phase with packed schedules which I won't regret the time and energy put into each one of them. I think somewhere out there the Almighty has planned to let me meet all my friends and join all the activities I've been dreaming to join before I start my new phase.

Went back to hometown for literally less than 2 days. It's been two months since I saw my parents and my bro. And I was enjoying every moment of the family reunion. When was it that the 4 of us go out and have supper together? When was it that the 3 of us ease ourselves in the room and had some light chats? I will remember the sweet feeling during the reunion. Not sure when I can see them again. Sob.. Miss my family already.


Me and bro

Had IW camp staff training and met up new faces and know more about Raleigh and the committees. Learned something which I think is really useful in life - debriefing. In another word, debriefing is like helping one to search of their inner self and lead them to their own understandings in improving themselves. In a simpler word, it's called motivating people. I find it amazing to be given the chance to learn this. And having to motivate people motivates me. =) I had a trial on debriefing that day and was not doing well coz I have problem in leading the person to their inner answer, or should I say I can't even get hold of the underlying problem they were facing. Debriefing is a new thing to me. And I think its challenging. And I'm gonna go for it.

Met up my girls (except CP) that same afternoon for Hin Kian's birthday celebration in Paddington House of Pancakes in The Curve.





WY and SY


SY and HK the birthday boy


Me and Aud


Vincent and GP



Kersin and Yong


The pancakes:

My order =) It's called blitzer or something like that, a Russian pancake cuisine.





That same night, went to had another round of food hunting. Went to Kuchai Lama for their famous Fish Head Soup Noodle with Yumin, Adam and Jia Yaw. Thanks Yumin for the good recommendation.


It was already 9pm but the restaurant was fulled with people. We had to wait for seats when we reach there.


Jia Yaw, our coordinator in IW last year and Adam


Adam nd Yumin


Me and Yumin


The soup and the fish head were incredibly tasty. This restaurant is a must try. Price for this Fish paste fish head soup noodle is RM6.90. Yumin, Adam and Jia Yaw ordered Fresh Prawn fish head soup noodle which is RM13.90. They said its worth the price.

I forgot to take the picture of the restaurant shop front.


Here's the picture of the shopfront taken from http://www.ahmok.com/

According to Yumin, this area is a new place in Kuchai Lama, called Kuchai Enterprenour.


Gonna sleep already. Nights. More pictures coming up on Gunung Dato' when I'm free and have enough energy.


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By the way, here's one cold joke I read on the bubble tea I bought today.

有个人很机车，然后他被人骑走了。

冷.....


It's in Chinese and is only funny in Chinese. Cannot be translated. I had a good laugh when I saw it. Luckily didn't choke by the pearls.