JYJ the music essay

JYJ's new song reveal their feelings about their previous company. Combine the words and the music it really get me angry with SM company. Nicely composed and written. =)

Have I ever told you this?

After a probation period lasting a few months in 2003, we, the team members, finished our first task with ease.
In 2004, we were the employees of the month with countless top results, but we couldn't be content with just that.
We were unable to contain ourselves and we started wanting more.

2005, we embarked into the overseas market.
We thought everything would go smoothly like in had in Korea.
On our first attempt, we had the worst possible results and that is when my confidence started to lower.
A language we couldn't even speak.
An imprisonment that they said was not an imprisonment but for our own good.
An excessive amount of solitude, tears and rage, these were what made us one.
Saying that we wouldn't part ways no matter what happened, saying that we should always be together, saying that we should resemble one another's good points.
We said these things within our hearts and kept running.

One day, finally, we reached that top position we had so earnestly wanted.
We took our phones and contacted our families and friends.
That day had finally come.
From that point on, everything went so well.
Records, selling hundreds and thousands.
Winning every award out there and harvesting the fruits of our labor.
It felt like even when we cried, the tears fell gracefully.

The reason we were happier than any joy or sorrow.
We who never gave up and ran until the end.
The reason we were stronger than anything else, it was because we were one.

You have already changed.
(I can't stay in that spot forever.)
I'll be the first to turn my back to you.
(I can't just shed tears forever.)
Even though you keep getting further away, I'll continue to call out your name.
(Fly me high into that sky.)

We had been running for quite some time.
When we were surrounded by the unexpected big wall, we thought, "Has it always been this dark?"
That stayed in my mind for a long time.

Once this happened, with the steady growing business expenses and increasing debts, the situation became something I could no longer handle on my own.
Our CEO had once said these words to us, "Tell me whenever you need something because we will always be like family to each other."
"Tell me whenever you need something."
Remembering those words, I took the courage to call him and ask him a favor.
Though I had a strange feeling inside, he was the only one I could rely on at that time because we were like a family that would always be together.

Though I had built up the courage to ask him a favor, all I got in return was a cold refusal.
His words made me so mad but I contained myself and asked him once more to help me out.
He hung up on me.

I couldn't stop the tears streaming down my face.
I couldn't think straight because he wasn't the family I had always thought he was until that point.
When he needed us, we were family to him.
When we needed him, we were strangers to him.

More amazing things happened as time continued pass.
Hearing that we had finally struck gold overseas and brought in result so unbelievably astronomical, I walked into the office with a bounce in my step to receive my pay.

Our team members were looking at each other with enthusiasm.
We complimented each other's hard work.
However, the statement of accounts we received said we were at a deficit.
I though I hadn't looked at the figures correctly so I looked at them again.
Everything was listed under the expenses.
Damn it, how could have all of the money we earned go towards paying expenses?
What kind of expenses were there to make that much money vanish?

I couldn't believe my eyes so I asked them to show me the detailed statement of accounts that I'd never seen before.
They told me they'd show it to me, but I never got to see those few sheets of paper because I did was work.

The number of questions I had increased as time passed.
The headaches grew the more our team members got together and discussed it.
If I were to ask just one last thing...
Are the things we do for the company and really and completely things that are for the company?

Sure, let's say they were.
We, the kind souls, will that one slide.
We will forget about it, for the company and for us who have been together for so many years.
But, that isn't right, those aren't things you should be saying to us.

Were you seriously planning on disappointing us until the very end?
When you called, all you would talk about were our team members behind their backs, it was so difficult to trust you.

This is exactly like what our seniors told us.
Did you want to keep only the ones who would still willingly make money for you?
A senior told me that they family the company always talked about would make it hard for us to keep going if we ever left the company.
Those words refuse to leave my mind.

Though I have so much more to say, I can't because I get so frustrated at the thought that someone will torment us even more when this song is released.

Anyway, even though life is hard, we are working hard and doing well.
We are trying to really smile though we continue to be tormented.
This effort of ours is not the effort of a mere product, it is the effort that is driven by the thought that we want to die without any regrets when we leave this earth.

Yes, in the end, it's JYJ.
Yesterday and tomorrow, though I've thought about it all day, I can truly feel the difference between then and now at 25, my age.
I will now put this pen down, but my heart is at ease at this moment because I am able to feel the love of our fans.

I'm thinking about sharing the load I've kept within my heart all this time.
Though nothing is ever easy, my heart is at ease.
I'm happy because we have our fans as our family.
I'm always thinking of you all.
I love you.

So, could you believe in us until the end?
Could you tell us that you love us?
We will work hard until the end, so could you always stay be our side?

Because we still have you and you still have us.

I promise that I will show you everything in due time.
Yes, we are JYJ.

You have raised the palace walls and firmly closed the door.
They say that love is not imprisonment, love is letting go so that you can fly freely, but I don't even expect that much.
For we, who you have made, are not even worth half of half of that.
We are nothing but eternal frogs living in a well.

Though I still have much to say, I will end it here.


KOREAN LYRICS
내가 이런 얘기 한적 있나

2003년 몇 개월수습 기간을 마치고 팀원들이 첫 과제를 가뿐히 해치운 우리
2004년 이 달의 사원, 수많은 최고 실적, 그것만으로 만족할 수가 앖었던 우리 어 이상 참지
못하고 더 많은걸 바라기 시작했지

2005년 해외 진출, 한국에서처럼 모든 것이 수월할 줄 알았어.
첫 도전, 최악의 실적을 기록하고 그떄부터 자신감은 추락하고 말았어.

되지도 않은 언어
매일 숙소와 회사만
우릴 외한다는 구속 아닌 구속으로만

지나친 고독과 눈물과 분노
이것이 우릴 하나로 만들었고
행여나 어떤 일이 있어도 헤어지지 말자며
늘 함께하자며

사로가 좋은 면들만 닮아가자며
마음 먹고 달려나란 우린

드디어 어느 날 고토록 간절히도 바라왔던 최고를 한 거야.
각자 핸드폰을 잡고 가족과 친구에게 연락을 한거야.

그날이 다가오 거야
그때부터 모든것들이 잘 풀리기 시작했어

몇 십만 거의 실적, 상이란 상은 아 휩쓸고 성과를 실감했어
눈물은 훌러도 부드럽게 떨어지는 기분

어떤 기쁨, 슬픔보다 행복했던 이유

끝까지 포기 않고 달려온 우린
어떤 감함보다 가함, 역시 하나라는 이유

이미 변한 네게
(항상 그자리에 설 수 없어요)
먼저 돌아설게
(항상 눈물 흘릴 수도 없었죠)
점점 더 멀어져 가는 너의 이름만 불러볼게
(저 하늘 멀리 날 날려주세요)

한참을 달려왔나
생각지도 못한 큰 벽에 가려지고
이렇게 어두웠나라는 생각이 한참 머릿속에 머물렀어

함번은 이런 일이 있었어
커져가는 영업비에, 늘어가는 빚에
혼자서는 감당할 수 없는 일이기에

예전에 사장님께서 건네셨단 말
필요한 것이 있으면 말해라, 우린 언제나 서로 가족이니까

뭐든 필요하면 말해라
그말에 용기를 내어 전화를 걸어 부탁을 드렸어

뭔가 느낌은 이상했지만 의자할 수 있는 전부였으나까
우린 영원히 함께 할 그런 가족이니까.

용기를 내서 부탁했지만 돌아온 건 냉정한 거절뿐
그 말에 너무 화가 났지만 참고 부탁을 다시 한 번 드렸어

전화를 끊었어

흘러나오는 눈물을 멈출 수가 없었어
내가 그동안 믿어왔던 가족이 아니란 색각에 혼란스러워졌어

우리를 필요로 할 떈 가족, 우리가 필요로 할 땐 남.

갈수록 신기한 일들만 많아져 가는 기분
드디어 해외에서 대박을 만들어 상상치도 못한 실적을 올렸단 소리에
가변운 걸음오로 급여 날 회사로 들어갔어

팀원들 서로 다 들뜬 눈빛으로 서로를 마주 보았어
열심히 했다며 서로를 칭친했어

그때 받은 정산서엔 실적이 마이너스
내가 본 것이 질못 본 거라 생각하고 다시 확인을 해보니
모든 것이 경비다.
젠장, 그 많던 게 다 경비로 빠졌다.
어떤 경비길래 그 많던 게 어디로 날아가?

도무지 믿을 수가 없어서 정산한 적이 없는 정산 내역서를 보여달라고 했어.
알았다며 보여주겠다며 그렇게 몇 자의 내역서를 결국 보지 못한 채 일만 했서.

시간이 흐르면 흐를수록 궁금증은 커져가,
팀원들 머리를 모아 생각하면 할수럭 머리만 아파가.

마지막으로 한 마디만 더 한다면야
회사 위해 한 일들이
정말 진심으로 회사를 위한 것이었냐?

그래 그렇게 했다 쳐. 착한 우리가 지나쳐 줄게.
그래도 몇 년간 함께 해온 우리, 회사를 위해 잊어줄게.
그래도 그건 아니잖아, 우리에게 할 말은 아니었잖아.

마지막까지 우릴 실망시키려고 아주 작정을 한 거냐?
걸려온 전화에 한다는 말이 팀원의 됫담화 정말 믿기 힘드렀다

선배들의 말이랑 똑같아. 돈 벌 놈은 남게 하고 싶었냐?
회사에서 말한 가족에게 회사 나가면 힘들어질 거란 말을 한
그 윗부의 말이 머릿속에서 떠나질 않는다.

더욱 어 할말이 많지만 이 노래 나가고
누군가가 더욱 어 우리들을 괴롭힐 생각하니 짜증나서 더는 더 못하겠어.

아무튼 우린 힘들었지만 열심히 잘 살아가고 있어.
그 누구의 괴롭힘에도 정말 웃으려고 노력하고 있어.

이건 우라가 상품으로서의 노력이 절대 아니야
인간으로서 내가 죽는 날
후회하고 싶지 안다는 노력인 것 뿐이야

그래 결국은 JYJ,

어제와 내일, 하루종일 생각해봐도
그때와 지금의 차이를 느낄 수 있는 25, 나의 나이

이제 그만 펜을 놓으려고 해
그래도 나 지금 마음은 편해

편의 사랑을 느낄 수 있으니...
마음 한 켠에 샿인 짐을 털어버틸까 해.
쉬운 일이 없다지만 속 편해
우린 팬이란 가족을 가졌으니까 행복해
늘 생각해 너흴...
사랑해.

그러니 끝까지 우리 믿어줄 수 있겠니
사랑한다고 얘기할 수 있겠니
언제까지나 우린 노력할테니 늘 우리 곁에 있어줄 수 있겠니

아직 우리에겐 너희들이 있으니
너희에겐 우리둘이 있으니

약속해, 모든걸 걸고 보여줄께
그래 우린 JYJ

성벽을 높이고 문도 굳게 닫았네
사랑은 구속하지 않는 법이라잖아
사랑은 자유롭게 놓아주는 것
그것 따윈 바라지도 않아
그 반의 반의 반도 못한 너희들이 만든 우리는 영원한 우물 안 개구기
아직 하고 싶은 이야기가 많은데
우늘은 여기까가지만 할게

Kimchi jjigae crave again

To be frank, I don't like blogging now. Because Facebook has been substituting blogging. I got to post nice photos with captions explaining my feelings and thinking, why do I still need a blog right? What good about blog is that I can express more as compared with FB (Coz i dun post notes in FB), but what if I say I don't want to let people know in detail what I'm thinking? Hehe. Then there's no point in blogging, right?

Ah.. right.. There's one good thing about blog though. I can at least trace back easily what I had posted even back to the ancient years. FB can't do that. FB has all the new events overlapping on top of old events, and hence making it hard (Or impossible?) to search back the photo or article or wall post.

So actually, I wanna list down the Korean restaurants I wanna visit to test their kimchi jjigae and beef BBQ here so that it'll be easy for me to trace back and also I can share my opinions here with Korean food lovers out there, and vise versa, too.

According to the website I found, there are a few restaurants which are highly rated:

1. Bulgogi BBQ House, Kota Damansara, PJ
2. Daorae, USJ Taipan (Tried pork BBQ but it was too long ago, I forgot how it tastes already)
3. Seoul Garden, Bandar Utama
4. Daorae, Desa Sri Hartamas
5. Haeun Khan, Persiaran Barat PJ
6. Kung Jung, Jln Bukit Bintang
7. Dae Jang Gum Korean BBQ, Bandar Puteri Puchong
8. Gomone, Ampang
9. Seoul Korea, Taman Danao Desa (Tried BBQ pork and beef, and kimchi jjigae. Kimchi jjigae was disappointing, BBQ was so-so. But I love the fried peanut with sugar banchan!! =D)

According to recommendation from ajussi (my Korean language classmate who isn't a Korean, obviously):

1. Korea House, SS2
2. A Korean restaurant in Taipan which is not Daorae (Either Dae Jang Gum or Han Woo Ri)
3. A very Korean style Korean restaurant which serve a book of kimchi cabbage in Sri Hartamas I guess (need to ask Ajussi to confirm what's the name.. lol)


I think I'll start with Daorae @ Taipan first. Can't wait to eat kimchi jjigae again!!

화이팅!

월요일에 한국어 시험이 있어요. 저는 지금 공부해야 해요.

내일 아침 일찍 잃어나야 해요. 동료하고 같이 Putrajaya에 hot air balloon을 보러 갈 거예요. 정말 기다려요! 그래서 내일 아침에 공부하지 못해요. 그러니까 저는 이제 공부해야 해요.

화이팅!!



Note: Whoa! This is my first Korean post. *Clap clap* Next time I should push myself to write more in Korean to practice my Korean writings =) And about speaking... Hmm.. I still have to find a a Korean to practice my speaking. Nobody can practice with me~~ Sob....

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Little bit of random photos


My favourite sandwich dinner which saves me from cooking and tapao trouble. =P


My cousin taking photos of the Alice in the Wonderland scene in Midvalley


My job that requires lots of patience reading the DNA bands and recording the band size one by one.


Met up with Yee Kheng last month


Nicely braised tofu and eggs in Canton-i @ S. Pyramid


Played with photoshop

Decision made!

I had already graduated from Elementary Level 1 Korean language from ICLS two weeks ago. Had been considering and re-considering for countless times whether to continue to Level 2. The new class starts tomorrow. And if I am to attend the new class, I will have to pay tomorrow before the class.

Actually I was thinking I should take a rest from these because it is getting more difficult and I think next level will be even harder for me to handle. I'm worried that I won't absorb as much from the coming lesson as I should and hence waste my money. But on second thought, I think this thinking is an excuse to run away from challenges. It looks like a cowardly act which I hope I shouldn't have.

Furthermore, taking a rest might take me months because in order to wait for another batch of students who have Beginner level 2 qualification, it will take another few months. And I think I will karat within these few months lo.

So, I had just decided about an hour ago that I should continue with the studies and learn and practice as much as I can. But actually to practice I still need to find a Korean friend la. Sigh. Why is it so hard to find a Korean friend ah? Hey, any Koreans reading this? I can teach you English and you teach me Korean la. Can ah? lol.

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Last weekend was tiring but contented coz I did few meaningful stuff. =)

Celebrated Woan Yng's birthday on Friday night at Full House @ Sunway Pyramid.

(Tomorrow only I will upload the photos coz I need to resize the photos first then only can upload, and it's too late now I wanna sleep first)

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Saturday I did some farming although I really hate gardening. Went to the organic farm Bandar Harapan for the second time.



But this time we got to DIY fertilizer using some ash, garbage enzyme, bacteria, cow dung and dried grass.



It stinks! I dun like the smell. I think nobody like the smell la. Then most of us got to touch a gigantic worm and some daredevils hold them for photos. Very geli lo....






Then went to Lymun's house to clean tents from IW camp. 12 people, about 3 hours cleaning.


I like this picture. Everyone looks busy. How nice if Karlye, Faizal, Zed and Woon Chin are in this photo. They were busy hanging the tents.

And then it rained and we had to take off all the tents. =.=" But it's been so long since I've walked in the rain, I enjoyed the rain though, despite the fact that we had to find another spot to dry the tents. =(



Didn't follow them to Kepong to dry the tents after dinner. Really wanna give them thumbs up for the Raleigh spirit lo. =) Coz it's been such a tiring day already but they still had to worry about the tents until the next day.

Cameron + Ipoh trip

Just came back from Cameron trip with the girls.

We stopped by Ipoh and had the famous taugeh at Kong Heng Coffee shop. The shop was so fullt seated that we had to stand beside the table to watch (and give pressure to) the customers so that they could leave their table and let us sit down.


Popiah. Nice but got har mai which I dun eat. hehe..


Taugeh. Nice!


Satay. So so la.


Hard boiled egg in tea


Beef noodle. Delicious! Even better than the one in my hometown. I like the radish!!

Then at Cameron we visited the strawberry sanctuary opposite Equatorial Hotel. Have to climb a little tar road slope to get to the shop.




Maybe we overrated strawberries in Cameron. It's actually not really sweet. It was very sour!



We also went to the pasar near the Equatorial Hotel.


I bought a strawberry dip chocolate stick. The strawberry was soggy and the chocolate was artificial. Not nice.

Then we had steamboat dinner with organic vegetables. The tomyam soup was good. Maybe it's the weather.



Then we visited the pasar malam. Had very tasty strawberry ice stick. Bought yellow colour cherry tomatoes (which is surprisingly tasty just like those red ones) and a cactus for Alia (my colleague).


Spot me!


I'm still biting on the strawberry ice stick

We stayed at a very very nice holiday home, called Arabella Holiday Home. The outside looks like a very European style bangalow.






I love love love the compound area!!


I found this picture from Google. It's not the room we stayed. I guess this room is first floor one. But the room we stayed looks something like this la.. But the room we stayed has 2 queen size beds and space enough to put 5 more tilams. And the bedsheet, pillow, floor were very clean! The bedsheet and comforter smelled like home. Got very clean detergent smell. Hehe. The floor was shiny and clean. Thumbs up for this holiday home. Next time if I come Cameron I wanna stay here again.


Then the next day went Boh tea plantation and its factory. Took lots of pictures with the tea plants there. Had a sip at the Boh tea cafe.

Then visited the boring Big Red Strawberry Farm where we were not allowed to touch the plants. The strawberry ice stick was not as nice as the one sold in the pasar malam. And the vege sold there looks expensive to buy.

So we didn't manage to pluck strawberries in the farm but I'm satisfied having to touch the tea plants. =) And climbed a little to the top of the tea plantation which was like about 170m only. Keke. But it did killed my "hiking withdrawal symptom" a bit. lol... And the fog and cooling morning weather was refreshing. I love that trek.

Summore I met a Korean family at the top. Their kids walked very slow in front of us. So they keep asking their kids to walk faster down the hill. Then I told them "kwenchanayo" (means it's ok). Then the young couple was very surprised and looked at me. Then the guy asked me "are you Korean or Chinese?" in English. At that moment I was so excited. So I tried to answer in Korean but my mind was suddenly blank! So I wanted to reply him in English. But I suddenly dun even know how to reply him in English. I was like "Korean.. errr.. err... no.. not Korean" =.= I'm really useless. But luckily I managed to squeeze in the sentence hankukeoreul baewoyo. Seriously I need to practice more on my Korean speaking.

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Erm by the way, I just sat for my Korean exam just now. I got 94% this time! It's way better than I thought. I thought I can only get 70+. Teacher was being generous coz got a few questions I answered wrongly because of misinterpret the meaning of the questions, but she didn't minus mark from there.

Since I told myself I'm gonna treat myself a good meal if I get 90% and above for the exam, I'm gonna look for nice food tomorrow after work. Muahahaha..

p/s: More photos to come =). Photo taken by Audrey (for the Cameron part) and me (for the Ipoh part).
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Heard this song on Audrey's car during the trip. Very cute song very 林宇中 called 幸福马戏团. I like the chorus part! =)

Jingle Bell with Rain

Found this cute video on one of my friend's FB link:

A bakery advertisement by Rain and Goo Hye Sun which is full of Christmas feel =)



His body language when the girl hugs the bear second time is very typical Korean style. lol.. Always see this in Korean drama one. =) I like his face expression when the third time the girl hugs the bear. Din know Rain can be this good in acting one.

Very busy weekend

The weekend was full of schedules.

Friday:
Morning - Go find Zhuang. We went to shopping at Pavillion! Had lotsa fun!

Night - Had dinner with Woan Ying and Audrey at Pappa Rich, Sunway Pyramid. And then we went to drink herbal tea at Gong Wo Tong. Had fun too! Received CP's birthday present from WY. It's cap again. lol. This year I've received 2 caps plus my previously own cap, it's 3 now. I seldom wear cap one.. Hope I can find some reasons to wear cap one day. lol.

Saturday:
Morning - Early morning around 7am woke up. I thought my alarm clock was kidding me waking me up so early on Saturday (i.e. 6.45am). Then only I suddenly remembered I promised Dennis to fetch Raleighians to campsite from IYC. I had to reach IYC at 8am. Luckily it was not very late yet. I drove pass the roundabout to IYC, U-turn back, called Marble for direction 3 times but he cut off my call. I was damn panic that time coz I seriously dun remember how to go IYC already. Then gave up calling Marble, called Vincent instead. He gave me the direction but I thought I overdrove again so I took a U-turn. Then later he pointed out that actually at the U-turn there it's the turn to IYC. =.=" I so wanna kill myself. So I look for another U-turn to turn back, mana tau I took the wrong turn and got myself into the residential area of Taman Cannaught. I started crying. Sobbed for 5 minutes while driving coz I was totally lost. I didn't know where I was. I called Marble again thinking his house is sorta near this area maybe he know the residential area. Mana tau when he answered the first thing he said was "SHIT! I forgot about the camp! Bye" So I called Vincent again but I couldn't tell him where I was. Then dunno how I turned back to Kesas and saw the familiar burial place beside the Kesas Highway. Thanks god! And I found the roundabout later. Following Vincent's direction I finally managed to reach IYC (before Marble... lol). Thanks to Vincent so much!

Whoa. My got-lost-in-Cheras story so long one.

So, I fetched them to the campsite, got to claim RM20 from Dennis for the petrol cover. And had fun helping them carrying things to the campsite (coz they were lacking man power), setting up the tent and helped Dennis take water with jerry can from the stream nearby. Awww I miss jungle so much! And I miss Raleigh moments so much! Miss being in a team. And I'm definitely regretting for not joining the long drop digging... I've never dug one before... But coz I'll be too late for Mei's tuition already and summore I've promised mum not to get into jungle during rainy season. Since I had already entered the campsite which sort of broken my promise, I felt bad and dragged myself away from the campsite after a small discussion with the Raleighians. I left around 10 something.

Afternoon - When I was back it was 12. I was damn tired. Tired actually from the non-stop walking on Friday with Zhuang in Pavillion plus carrying heavy stuff to campsite from that morning. Didn't opt for shower. =P Slept for an hour then went to give tuition to Mei. Taught tuition for 3 hours! It was already 6pm. Then after that Mei showed me a lot of Korean MVs and I watched with sleepy eyes. lol.

Night - After urging Mei to finish them up, I went to Pyramid to buy Yenny's present (coz just got request from Toh Theng to buy her present when I was at the campsite I guess). It was about 9 when I reached Pyramid. When I'm done buying the bag I straight away headed to pay the parking ticket. But I was too tired I didn't notice the note on it saying "This machine only accept RM1 notes". I fed it with RM10! My RM7 was gone! I thought it's the machine failure, so I walked all the way to the carpark helpdesk to claim back my RM7. They told me actually that machine only accepts RM1 notes. Luckily they were willing to pay me back the RM7. Thank goodness! When I'm back I feel like dying already.

Sunday:
Morning - Woke up with aching hand muscles due to carrying the things to campsite (too long never exercise that's why so lousy...) Fetch Audrey to Monash at 7.40am. Then came back and got myself prepared for Bak Kut Teh breakfast in Klang with Yenny and Toh Theng. Had breakfast until 9 something and went to Taman Pertanian (Botanical Garden) in Shah Alam. We were lucky. Before we headed for the Taman it was raining, but when we got down the car the rain stopped. We reached there at around 10am. We took the free bus to tour around the Taman. We visited the paint ball place, fed some Tilapia fish and got to touched them with my fingers and them biting my fingers, took some pictures...

Afternoon: And then we went for sky trek! We joined Yenny's cousin and friends which made 15 of us. The game was damn fun! Flying fox looked so scary to me last time but now I think it's the easiest obstacle of all. Coz it totally need no energy. It was no longer scary now coz I know that the carabiners and the harness were very reliable. Climbing the stairs to a platform on the tree was the hardest. My hand ache when I was not even halfway climbing up. And second hardest was walking on hanging poles. The poles keep swining left and right making it hard for me to step on them. Although I had already secured myself to the rope above me and summore with the harness safely wrapped around my butt, I still feel scared. What if I lost grip on the poles and I was hung by the harness and I can't pull myself up to continue with the journey? Oh, I'm just being negative. Coz actually I can pull myself up one. The strings would help.

Before the trek I put my handphone in So's locker. But during the trek she left earlier coz she had to bring her niece and nephews to tuition. So my handphone is with her now. Tomorrow only can get back from her. I feel so weird without my handphone by my side. And when my handphone is not with me only I feel it's so important.

One more thing I lost during the trek was my buddha bracelet. It broke off when I was walking along a net obstacle. The bracelet brushed against the net and broke off. Have to get myself another one soon. I feel weird not wearing a buddha bracelet on my wrist now. Maybe I'm too used to wearing it already.

Since my hand memang already aching this early morning, the sky trek didn't add any pain to it anymore. lol...

Oh I love sky trek! Wanna go for more challenging one next time. =)


P/S: Sorry. Pictures I took were in my handphone and it's not with me now. I'll upload them as soon as I have my handphone back. Then some of the pictures of me doing the sky trek were with Yenny. Will put it up when Yenny shares on Facebook.

Copy cat plan

There's a Popular Book Fair at Summit USJ recently. All the books there are 70-80% discount. Some children books are even RM1 each! The books there are not organizely arranged and dusty. But if you're lucky you can find good books by renown authors.

I went there with Get Pei on Wednesday. She found 刘庸 and 村上春树's books.

I wanted to find a book about the history of 康熙, a great emperor in China. But I didn't have that luck. I found 三国演义 though. It's as thick as a dictionary. I had always wanted to buy a detailed 三国演义 book since I had already read the 'light-and-easy' version which is just about an inch thick. But the book I found was Book 2. Book 1 was no where to be seen.

In the end I grabbed these books.



The translated version of "Chew on this: Everything you don't want to know about fast food"
And a Korean learning book.

I feel like going again to try my luck again before it ends.

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When I was walking back to car park with Get Pei we saw this:



Is this a graffiti competition? It's so cool! And one thing both me and Get Pei agreed on is that Malays are better graffiti artists than Chinese. =)

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2 days ago I suddenly had this idea of mimicking photographed photos by drawing with hand using oil pastels (crayons).

Some people had already done that. These are some examples I found on the net:





Uhmm.. I thought I was the one who could only think of mimicking photographs.

Erhem... Anyways, I'm gonna start from simple one first coz lately very busy with work. Don't really have time but I still crave for some leisure. =P

I'm gonna start with this:



Simple and nice. Hope I won't ruin the drawing la.. hahaha..

Will post up my drawing once I'm done.


여러분,기다리세요!! =)
(Means: Everyone, please wait!!)

My colour plates were in BioMalaysia

Went to BioMalaysia on Thursday. Visited Vivantis booth and my coloured agar plates. =P

They hanged them on the Christmas tree.


Can you find my plates? =) There were plenty hanging up there, with assorted colours.



Here's my most favourite orange colour plate =)

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Went to shop with Audrey last night at Pyramid.

Took some pictures of the clothes I tried on. Hmm, I guess this is not against the law right? Taking pictures of the clothes in changing room... I find it easier for me to decide which one to buy after taking the picture and reviewing it again and again after I left the changing room.


My eyes look different. Looks like I applied eyeliner. In fact I only applied foundation and lipstick. That's my eyelash I guess. =P


And hey! I still look chubby like last time lo, no? Mum said my face slimmed down a lot. I dun see that here. I bought this piece. I have very few long sleeve clothes in my closet. The weather is getting colder and the lab air cond has been working very well, too well till my T-shirt is no longer keeping me warm already.


Ignore my retarded expression. This piece looks very very nice on me! But I didn't buy it. Coz it's RM110, out of my budget. Secondly, I won't wear it often if I buy it, can't wear it to work also... But feel sad I didn't buy it... =(

Then went to Kitchen (I'm sure the shop name doesn't spell like this but I can't help calling it Kitchen whenver I wanna shop there) to try on some clothes too. Actually this shop sold very nice Korean style lady jackets but after trying these jackets just don't fit me. They look way too big for my size.

Something like this:

It's not practical to wear this in Malaysia la. But the jacket looks so cute!

I tried on this piece of dress.

A bit hip-hop style. I like the bottom part but the top singlet part is a bit too plain.

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Mei showed me this MV after our Chemistry tuition.

Butterfly by G-Dragon from Big Bang.

My purse dripping blood

Today I stepped out of my house and tried to start off my car engine. But the car didn't budge. Instead, it triggers the car alarm. =.=" And my remote couldn't even off the alarm. The car was not responding to the remote control at all. I felt so hopeless standing beside my car demanding it to stop the alarm. I know it's silly. Cars don't read human language. My neighbour peeked out of her door checking what was happening. I gave her an "I have no idea, sorry" look.

Luckily my housemate was still at home, still yet to go for work. She drove me to a workshop nearby, I left my name and address and we came back. She went to work while I sat at the living room waiting for the repairman to come. It was the battery. My car battery was dead already. Upon changing new battery the car suddenly can start already.

Then I thought it's done. But that's not all.

The repairman said my generator (alternator) was weak. He said generator is a part which supplies energy to the battery (my mechanical knowledge is very weak, I'm not sure whether I understand it correctly). Since the generator is weak, it means I have the risk of having my car dead in the middle of the road half way driving. I imagined myself stuck by the roadside looking for someone to tow the car for me. This is always my nightmare. So, after juggling between my already depleting money and the danger and trouble, I decided to pour my RM380 out to change a brand new generator to secure my safety. Adding up with the car battery it costs a total of RM600!

Last month I just changed 4 wheels and 2 rear absorbers which cost me RM800. If I have to spend few hundreds on my car every month I guess I'm gonna bankrupt soon. And I dun like the feeling of getting financial support from my parents. Sigh, I should start learning how to be financially independent already. In fact I have always been receiving financial support from my parents. Coz I haven't even have the ability to pay installment for my car every month. Who says working in lab has high pay? Nobody says.

Now thinking about it, maybe I should stop my Korean class after this level and used that money for the car installment. Sigh.. I hate being an adult where responsibilities are more important than my personal interests. Sigh.

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Recently had been addicted to a fiction I just bought.

The Host.


It's about a very kind and peace-loving alien which stays in a human body. Although initially the humans thought she will be a threat to human beings but after a while people started to accept her into the human community and treat her like family. It's a very heart-warming, focusing more on the emotions among family members and friends than on alien world.

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I love food.

I prefer hunting for great food out in the town than making myself though I can cook a bit.

I love the Asam Laksa in PappaRich, Sunway Pyramid. No wonder there's always a crowd in the restaurant.


Thick and strong fish taste in the broth. Not very sour but spicy enough to send tears to my eyes. Very delicious I would say.

Next time I wanna try more food in this restaurant. Not a professional food review blogger. But, I'll share any nice food I tried here. =)

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I cooked a meal when I was back at KT. Mum cut everything for me when I was out in the town. When I'm back everything was nicely cut and I just had to cook.




Soup with tomato, sotong, taufu and pickled vege. I totally didn't add any flavourings coz the pickled vege already gave enough.

Comforted by a stranger

Last night I slept very soundly. Was it because of the cooling weather? Or because of the comforting dream?

I dreamed of resting my head on a guy's shoulder and he was patting my head softly. It was a guy whom I've never seen before but in the dream I felt that he's someone very close to me and someone I trusted. That pat on my head gave me a peace in mind.

Even though I slept exactly same hours like normal days but last night I slept extraordinarily soundly. I can still feel the comfort he gave me although I dunno who he is. lol...

Maybe watched too much Korean drama already. =P

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I just cut my hair. Was planning to just trimming it. But when the stylist suggested shorter, I was curious how would I look with even shorter hair.

Now my longest hair is just 2 inches longer than my ear lobe and the backside hair is very short and bobbed. I like the zero weight feeling on my head.

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Still having stomach pain. It has been troubling me since last Friday. Another tragedy of food poisoning. Sigh... But it's way better than last time, vomiting and all.

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Chee Hui just sent me Youtube link about a funny advertisement.

A DHL advertisement.

Their slogan is "We deliver whatever"

It's really funny lo.. But it explains the slogan very well. Haha..

Sunday blue

This is truly funny!

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Went to swim for the first time after 3 months. The day was still early for me. It was 10am. Swam for 30 minutes non-stop for 700m.

Then after that went to eat Korean lunch at Dasarang, SS15 alone. Had Kimchi Deopbap (Fried kimchi pork with rice). It came in a set at RM16.90.



The taste of the kimchi mixed well with the pork. But it's very very spicy and the amount was too big I had to waste some of the side dish that came along with the set. When I almost finished the meal my tongue was too painful from the spicy kimchi that I had to order a cup of green tea to sooth it.

The food was tasty. The drink was nice too. The swim was refreshing. The sunshine was cheerful. I was supposed to enjoy all these but it didn't cheer up my depressed mood. Too bad.

Maybe need more swim? Or Korean meal?

Thanks for the birthday treats =)

Had a blast before and during my birthday. =)

Last Sunday the girls pre-celebrated my birthday for me. We went to Alexis, Bangsar for dinner. I had Spaghetti carbonara, addicted to pasta already. lol.. The ambience was comfortable. The company was fun. We took a few photos but the photos are still with Get Pei. Hehe.. So cannot show here yet until she shares on Facebook. After the dinner, we went for some shopping at the boutiques nearby. Helped Audrey to look for dress for her friend's wedding.

I received a huge handbag from the girls as birthday present! Love it! Because it's white!



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During my birthday my colleagues celebrated for me at Secret Recipes. We had a 1kg Chocolate Indulgence too. I had Irish Lamb Stew. I'm very disappointed with the quality of the food. The texture feels like can food. The spaghetti there is much more better than the lamb.

I was busy eating the food. Forgot to take the photo of my lamb stew.

I only snapped a photo of Ain with her lasagna. Hehe..



Anyway, despite the food, thanks for the company and the effort to celebrate with me! =)

Received a box of chocolate from my colleague from a Swiss chocolate company




Whoa! I love chocolates so much! These are too beautiful to be eaten. lol

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After work, I had a 100% Korean style dinner with my Korean classmate, Alec, at Dasarang SS15. It was his treat. Really wanna thank him for introducing such nice food to me. I've dine in in Korean restaurant for 2 times before but never had I tasted such delicious ones. Maybe the previous one I didn't know how to order or the restaurants were not as good as Dasarang.

I didn't know he ordered this seaweed soup until the waiter served us. So touched! Coz Koreans eat seaweed soup on their birthdays. I feel totally like a Korean on my birthday!




And the seasoned ribeye was perfect!


Last time when I had BBQ beef in a Korean restaurant I didn't know the proper way of eating it. I just took the beef and stuff into my mouth.

The proper of eating the BBQ meat is:
1. Dip the meat in the chilli sauce called kojujang
2. Place the meat on the lettuce
3. Place a piece of cooked onion



4. Finally wrap it and stuff into the mouth.

The ribeye was very juicy and it was well-seasoned. It tasted so sweet until when I drink the Kimchi soup I feel it was bitter.



Despite the bitterness after having ribeye the Kimchi soup was nice! It has the special fermented taste in it. Very special. It's so so different from the taste of those instant Korean noodles!


Alec also ordered fried glass noodles (炒冬粉). He said coz Chinese celebrate the birthday by eating fried glass noodle. Erm? Not rice noodle (面线) meh? Anyway, the portion of the fried glass noodle was too big. We could not finish it. Summore it's just so-so. Like normal fried mee only.


Was so happy and touched with the tasty Korean meal. Smile until my dimple came out. lol.. I didn't know I have dimple! o.O"

When we couldn't finish the food on the table, Alec asked the waiter to serve me a piece of chocolate brownie from Starbucks. I almost fainted when I saw it coz I dun think my stomach can fit the cake lo...


But this cake is so tasty that I finished it up without feeling like throwing up. lol. It's not very sweet, the taste of the sesame and mashmallow blends in the chocolate sponge cake and chocolate cream topping nicely. Tasted so much better than the chocolate indulgence from the Secret Recipe (I'm gonna stop eating Secret Recipes cakes already coz their standard had gone down so much)

It was an eye opener experience eating totally Korean-ish Korean meal. 고마워요~!

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After dinner went to yamcha at Starbucks with Soon and chat chat chat non-stop. Thanks for the treat =) But was damn tired by then and almost fell asleep when chatting. lol..

Sorry girls for ruining your surprise plan for me that night but your intention had touched me already =)