1 is better than 2?

Just came back from meeting Chee Hui whom I would say is my closest hometown friend. Watched drama in her room until I dun feel like leaving. Feel comfortable being with her. =) But sometimes will feel like just came back from a war because she talks like bullet. Hehe.

Forgot to pay back the dinner to her. Oops.. Have to treat her back the next time. =)

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Recently there's a song called "Two is better than one" by Boys Like Girls.

When I'm listening to this song a very peaceful thought came to me:

I dunno about two is better than one. But I feel at ease being 'one'. =)

I dun feel that lonely at all already! Being single is no longer dreadful to me already. I feel free and relaxed =) This feel so much different from few weeks ago when I felt unwanted, lonely, isolated especially when I saw couples walking by.

I had this change of mind few days after I set my 2010 new year resolution which is to let go of those stupid lonely feeling about being single. And thanks to the line Zhuang shared with me "If I cannot be with myself, then I'm not good enough to go anywhere by myself". I find this line easier to catch when changed to "If I cannot be with myself, then I'm not good enough to do anything alone". This line is like a powerful force, pushing me to be independent emotionally.

After I've changed my thinking, the whole world I see have become so much more friendlier. And couples in public places look so sweet and I even started to give blessings to them in my heart. =)

I just realized that I was once like this too, happy with everything around me. Even sunshine can cheer me up. Dunno since when I started to feel gloomy with everything. Nothing seemed to satisfy me.

But now, the cheerful Heay is back! I'm so glad I manage to find myself. In a more proper way, I finally respect myself. =)

Go Yink Heay! Aza!

Esophagitis

I felt my throat is blocked when I swallow anything, including water, since last Sunday. Then Monday, I started to have chest pain. I thought it's because of my grieving for my grandma's death. So I thought I should just let the grieving pass first and see whether the pain continues.

Yesterday went to see doctor. The moment I told the doctor I feel my throat is blocked when I swallow food or water, she blurted out that this is Esophagitis. And then she asked whether I had acidic food before that. I didn't. Then we both agreed that it's the late dinner I had recently due to OT at work. This month I had been eating dinner at 9 something. No more late dinners next time... Hmmm...

Note:
Esophagitis is inflammation of the esophagus. It is mainly due to gastroesophageal reflux, meaning gastric juice went upwards to the esophagus and hence damaging the esophagus. That means each time I swallow food it's actually squeezing through the injured esophagus before entering the stomach. OMG I dun even dare to imagine what happen in there.

And then I look up gastroesophageal reflux in wikepedia. The symptoms of the reflux are:
1. Heartburn (√)
2. Regurgitation (√, got that yesterday before I had lunch)
3. Trouble swallowing (√)
4. Pain with swallowing (√)
5. Excessive salivation (X)
6. Nausea (√, today I feel like vomiting before lunch time)
7. Chest pain (√)

Doctor said this will take long time to heal. Sigh.. I hope it heals faster. Nowadays I dun even have the mood to eat nice food coz I feel pain swallowing so what's the point of eating nice food when you'll only suffer instead of enjoying it? =(

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Yesterday went to have a fast shopping at Pyramid after work. Fast shopping means I had a buying list and I pre-plan the route in the mall for me to buy all the things listed in the list.

One of the items in my list is "cold colour clothes". According to Chinese culture, I should not wear warm colours (e.g. red, purple, orange, yellow) within the 100 days after the death of close relatives. I haven't been following this rule but this time I want to wear cold colour (e.g. blue, green, grey, white, black, beige) clothes for 100 days because I want to show respect for my dearest grandma.

I know mum would say "die already you do what also no use, you should have treat her well when she's still alive". I know I haven't been going back to hometown to visit her as often as I wish, and haven't been calling her for a chat as frequent as I should, but I'm satisfied because every time when I was with grandma, I did my best. =)

So back to my story, I want to wear cold colour clothes for 100 days which is until 24th April but I only have 5 cold colour clothes. One green and 4 white. (minus the green Raleigh Tee which I definitely will not wear it to work, too obvious la the R.. shy shy to wear outside Raleigh. hehehe..). I just realized that my pink and yellow clothes are dominating my closet. Now think about it, last time I wear pink and yellow almost everyday. lol..

That was why cold colour clothes was in my buying list. Yesterday when I passed by MNG yesterday during the fast shopping, I saw a very big "Clearance Sales" word on the glass window. 20 minutes later I came out with 2 cold colour tops (one light beige, one black). Love it so much and it didn't cost much, just an average of RM45 each. It's considered very cheap for MNG apparels.

She left us

Last Christmas, I blogged about my grandma.

26.12.2009 was the last day I called my grandma.

14.01.2010 night, after work around 10.30pm, mum told me grandma vomited and didn't had appetite for 2 days .

Friday 15.01.2010 5 am, my grandma passed away in her sleep. She was found cold and hard in her bed at 7am. ='(

Mum called me and told me about the bad news at 8am.


She'll always be in my heart. I'm back at kl, came back from KT from the funeral yesterday, but is still too sad and found my eyes welled up with tears whenever I think of her laughter, her favourite phrase (唔讲唔得笑), her teaching me wrap bakzhang, her queuing up with me to buy McD's sundae cone when I was young... Dun have mood to continue to blog about it...

Grandma.. Rest in peace.

Decision made!

I had already graduated from Elementary Level 1 Korean language from ICLS two weeks ago. Had been considering and re-considering for countless times whether to continue to Level 2. The new class starts tomorrow. And if I am to attend the new class, I will have to pay tomorrow before the class.

Actually I was thinking I should take a rest from these because it is getting more difficult and I think next level will be even harder for me to handle. I'm worried that I won't absorb as much from the coming lesson as I should and hence waste my money. But on second thought, I think this thinking is an excuse to run away from challenges. It looks like a cowardly act which I hope I shouldn't have.

Furthermore, taking a rest might take me months because in order to wait for another batch of students who have Beginner level 2 qualification, it will take another few months. And I think I will karat within these few months lo.

So, I had just decided about an hour ago that I should continue with the studies and learn and practice as much as I can. But actually to practice I still need to find a Korean friend la. Sigh. Why is it so hard to find a Korean friend ah? Hey, any Koreans reading this? I can teach you English and you teach me Korean la. Can ah? lol.

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Last weekend was tiring but contented coz I did few meaningful stuff. =)

Celebrated Woan Yng's birthday on Friday night at Full House @ Sunway Pyramid.

(Tomorrow only I will upload the photos coz I need to resize the photos first then only can upload, and it's too late now I wanna sleep first)

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Saturday I did some farming although I really hate gardening. Went to the organic farm Bandar Harapan for the second time.



But this time we got to DIY fertilizer using some ash, garbage enzyme, bacteria, cow dung and dried grass.



It stinks! I dun like the smell. I think nobody like the smell la. Then most of us got to touch a gigantic worm and some daredevils hold them for photos. Very geli lo....






Then went to Lymun's house to clean tents from IW camp. 12 people, about 3 hours cleaning.


I like this picture. Everyone looks busy. How nice if Karlye, Faizal, Zed and Woon Chin are in this photo. They were busy hanging the tents.

And then it rained and we had to take off all the tents. =.=" But it's been so long since I've walked in the rain, I enjoyed the rain though, despite the fact that we had to find another spot to dry the tents. =(



Didn't follow them to Kepong to dry the tents after dinner. Really wanna give them thumbs up for the Raleigh spirit lo. =) Coz it's been such a tiring day already but they still had to worry about the tents until the next day.

你要的爱

Recently keep hearing this old song on radio: 你要的爱 by Penny Tai. It's one of the theme songs in Taiwan Meteor Garden Drama.



Can only found this 你要的爱 MV on Youtube. I dun think it's the original one. Maybe it's a fan video. But my purpose is to attach the song here. Nice song right? After listening to this song I felt suddenly relaxed. No more stress and tension. =)

Let the brain work tomorrow, now all I need is serenity. =)

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When I was looking for the MV on Youtube I found this:



Reminds me of the scenes in the drama. My goosebumps came out when I finished watching. And the first thought that came to my mind was "Damn.. All these are so unreal and fairytale. How could I idolized this kind of fairytale? lol"

I saw Santa on New Year Eve

No I didn't saw Santa on New Year eve la. Just trying to make the title sounds funny. Keke..

It's already 2010 now. I can't believe how can the time flies so fast. 10 years ago we were still counting down to 2000 and worrying that the computer system cannot recognize the 2000 year and everyone was worried that a big chaos would happen to the world. 10 years ago, I went to count down with my classmates at my hometown and when the clock strucked 12 the world did not end. From that moment onwards I don't believe in the sayings of "the end of the world".

During these 10 years many things happened. I've graduated from high school, A levels and university. I've even started my working life. I got to know many new people in KL during A levels, during universities, in Raleigh, at work. My grandma and grandfathers passed away, my cousin passed away, a classmate of mine passed away. My cousin and some friends got married, had kids. I'm jumped in and then out of a relationship. I've learned to be less blur although sometimes still cannot avoid being blur. Hehe...

Last year, 2009, nothing big happened in my life. But I enjoy the process, at work, outside work, with Raleigh. I learned many things from work. Tried to be a good leader but ended up failed because couldn't please them and the supervisor at one time. Climbed to the peak of the mount KK, hence fulfilled a big dream in my life. Climbed many hills and got to learn more about trekking. Had more good food. Started to learn Korean language and managed to fulfill only one of my 2009 resolution. Haha.

Ok la.. Another one also can considered fulfilled la, i.e. to do aerobic exercise (e.g. jogging, swimming anything that can improve the respiration system) at least twice every week. There's one period of time when I trek almost every week which was considered consistent for aerobic exercise. I felt healthy that time. Since October when I had serious coughs I stopped all outdoor activities and swimming too. From that time onwards I feel my aerobic capacity got weaker due to lack of exercises.

In 2009 I had grown up in certain ways. I've think things differently and more realistically. Hehe.. This indirectly shapes some of my 2010 new year resolutions:

1. To save more money so that I can go travel overseas

2. To go back hometown more often. I think my parents miss me lotz and I definitely need to spare more time for my family as my 2009 didn't really had time for them.

3. A continuation from last year resolution - to do aerobic exercises e.g swimming, trekking or jogging, once every week

4. To feel comfortable and enjoy being single. I have great friends around me which already felt like receiving wonderful gifts.

5. Learn something new (like rock climbing, first aid, more Korean class?)

In overall, my 2010 resolution is to have a balance lifestyle. =P