Aku bukan untukmu...

Mum told me she noticed I didn't smile that much compared with last time. I think she's right. I felt the change.

Last time, I can smile to myself even when there's nothing to be happy about. Now, I frown a lot. Sometimes I frown because I'm thinking, sometimes I pretend that I'm thinking. Last time, I sang to myself wherever I am and whether or not I'm alone. (I love to sing to myself since I was in secondary school). Now, I seldom do that anymore.

I dunno whether it is because of the sad incident last year or because I really had changed to be less funny (mum said I became more matured).

Bleh. Dun care! As long as I still do stupid and funny stuff sometimes. I think I'm still me.

5 of us with the yet-to-be-disturbed lou sang


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Overheard this Malay song from one of my lab tech's handphone some time before CNY. The melody sounds very sad but beautiful. And the girl has nice voice!

"Aku Bukan Untukmu" by Rossa

HuHu....

I've been suffering from upper back muscle pain since last year June. At first, the pain was on and off. Mainly starts when I wake up from sleep. And then the pain persist till the mid of the day. Recently, it gets worse. Sometimes, the pain starts from beginning of the day and persist the whole day. I can't stand it anymore. Tomorrow, I'll go for a massage. Hope it helps. I hope I can go for yoga class too... (coz I know I'll be too lazy to do at home myself. Hehe)

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Every time when I look into the mirror at late night, my face will look very pale. And fairer. Every time this pale face will shock myself coz it looks really scary. Maybe I'm more used to having dark skin tone.


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Went out for a movie with Chee Hui today. We watched InkHeart. When I looked at the ticket I thought the cinema printed out my name. Coz InkHeart looks like YinkHeay. Don't you think? Just need to add in two Ys and remove the RT then become YinkHeay already. Hehehe.. It's a good science fiction movie I think coz the story is very creative. =)

Then we saw this very very funny notebook in MPH.


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Looks like our school time notebook right? It's purposely designed for the year of Cow. =) So cute! Chee Hui bought it and took its picture and send the picture to me so that I can blog it. Hehe. How nice! =)

Gotta go sleep already. I feel like I'm degenerating really fast lately. My body dun allow me to sleep late recently. My eyes and my upper back will feel tired easily. And if I sleep even later, all my bones will feel poking pain. And then the next day my joints will start to sore.

楊丞琳 太煩惱

This is one of the track in the drama series I watching. I love this song before I even watch the drama. Heard it on radio and loved it to bits!

Dream hard

Had been reading The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho recently since before CNY. I read it on and off whenever I have free time and whenever it is within my reach. Just now I read till the part where the shepherd finally fulfilled his dream after such a long and tiring journey. When I read until the part where he knelt down and weep in front of the pyramid, I have a sudden urge of weeping too. The joy of reaching the goal after all the hardship. It was the passion which pushed him towards his dreams. I almost weep for him.

I love adventure when I was very little. When I was 7 I love to go to the halfway constructed empty house with my neighbour and observed the worms crawling here and there on the ground, and touched the dirt in the moulded unwanted place. I climbed tables and jumped down to the floor in my house imitating superman and got scolded by my parents. Some time in the middle of my childhood, something changed me into a coward who stay only in the comfort zone. I didn't even dare to think twice on my dad's suggestion to go for a singing lesson given by his friend even though I know I love singing, just because I think staying in the comfort zone was better and because I didn't want to meet new people. I was seriously introvert to the extent that I didn't even walk around in the class and make noise when the teacher was not around (Now I think I've wasted my teenager life!)

When I was at my rebellious age, I was only wild in my dreams. I visioned myself to reach the top of Mount KK, I visioned myself to cross the river in Endau-Rompin National Park, I visioned to volunteer myself as a teacher in Cambodia. But having dreams is better than not having them. Maybe I was too keen about them last time, I think something is pushing me towards the dreams. But of course, this also have to do with my recent behaviour about stepping (slightly) out of my comfort zone. This action not only changed my perspective towards life but is also helping me achieve my ancient dreams almost 10 years ago.

One of my dreams - to climb the Mount KK - is going to be achieved soon! I'm anticipating to watch the world from KK!

And maybe a sea of clouds.

Kinabalu I'm coming!

I believe dreams, whatever they are, and how ancient they were, will come true sooner or later. It just depends on how much passions we put into the dreams we're having, don't you think?

Back to reality....

Finally I'm back! Here in my nest only can I upload the pictures I had taken during CNY coz I left my HP cable here. =P

Taken some photos during CNY.

With KT friends


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Met up Yee Kheng and got to know a new friend, Bryan. We had dinner at Canton-i in Pyramid.

I love this thing below:

The juice inside leaked out when I took a bite! Not too sweet and not too salty. I think it's tasty.


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The photos below are for syok-sendiri purpose. 100% camwhore purpose. Hehehe... You can choose to ignore this part. Haha.

But if you insist to view this part, please note the colour of my hair. Keke.. Can see got difference? =D

Hehe. Actually I dye my hair myself before CNY just to live up my hair. Although not very evenly distributed (This is my first time dye myself) but I love my hair texture more after dyeing it! =P


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Tomorrow have to go back to work after such a long holiday. I still dun have the mood to work yet. Sigh. Dun care first. Go sleep first. Nighties!