2011 new year resolution

As for the new year resolution for this year (2011), because of the un-achieved 2010 new year resolution, the resolution for this year will be the same except an addition of sense of urgency and determination into the list.

1. Save money
2. Exercise
3. More sense of urgency and determination in anything I do

2010 wrap up

2010 hasn't been a smooth year. Too many changes, too many things to adapt to. I shall roughly summarize big events to wrap up this year.

1. Grandma passed away. Even until half a year later I still cried so much every time I think of her. Now when I think of her my eyes will still get wet. And whenever I go back to KT I feel a strong emptiness because whenever I go back I would visit her almost everyday, but now, she's not here anymore....

2. Suffer from esophagitis due to gastric influx from having late and heavy dinner (like about 9 something pm) and no food (or even milo) between lunch time and dinner even though I felt painful from being too hungry.

3. Join a few runs: Putrajaya Night Marathon, Terry Fox Run, Oral Cancer Awareness walkathon, Penang Bridge Marathon

4. Graduated from my last Korean language course (elementary level) and stopped the classes

5. Joined and left yoga class (the time slots don't fit my schedule).

6. Successfully fundraised RM500 through Standard Chartered Marathon to National Cancer Society (but was admitted to hospital due to a weird dengue-like virus fever for a week and missed the run)

7. Left Vivantis and joined Carif

8. Admitted to hospital due to a weird dengue-like virus fever for a week and then had hemorrhage in my eyeballs which leads to floater-like structures, went to see eye specialist but caused me more serious hemorrhage. Luckily after a week half of the floaters were gone, left with some floaters for me to deal with everyday now.


I just realized this year I took too many new things and dropped to many that I find it hard to adapt to my new life. In the end I gave up a lot of things to let the pace of my life slow down. This year is a not satisfying year for me. No apparent achievement at work and outside work.


If I am to summarize the 2010 resolutions (copy out from previous blog post and revising them carefully now)

1. To save more money so that I can go travel overseas
-not achieved

2. To go back hometown more often. I think my parents miss me lotz and I definitely need to spare more time for my family as my 2009 didn't really had time for them.
-partly achieved (went back hometown in Jan, Feb, June, Aug, Dec), don't have the record from 2009, so I dunno whether I go back more often or not.

3. A continuation from last year resolution - to do aerobic exercises e.g swimming, trekking or jogging, once every week
-Not achieved. I think average of once every month got la.. lol

4. Learn something new (like rock climbing, first aid, more Korean class?)

-Learned yoga but gave up because no suitable time.

Antistress kit

I had been hybernating in many many things since this June. Zero trekking, zero blogging and then followed by zero exercising, not even yoga and I count the one and only swimming session as a leisure, not exercising.

I don't know what had I become lately. It's so not me! I totally transformed from someone who do regular blogging and someone who had so much passion about trekking, to someone who can live without them. I don't even know who I am now.

But, right inside, I feel contented with what I had achieved so far from July till now. I've learned a lot from my new job. Gained more insights about this cancer research thing. Have higher confidence about myself. Frown more. Worry more. Become a not so happy-go-lucky person I used to be. Now think about it, I haven't been really cheerful since the day I took my job. I've pushed myself too hard.

Everyone in the lab ask me how am I. Maybe my face tells everyone I'm not ok.

What in my brain is Keep up! Keep up! Don't lose track! You've always wanted to work in this field. Now you've came this far, you can't ruin it with your own hands. You have to do whatever you can to make yourself excel in this field. You don't want to regret in the future right?

So, when I started the new job in July. I started to read journals at home. But because I was really stressed out, the words just danced around I couldn't catch a word. My brain was frozen. I managed to read some, but I found myself absorbing more info from journals when at work. Sometimes not even effective during work time. I quit yoga because I was so stressed I didn't feel like walking out of my room, left alone driving 20 minutes (45 minutes if there's a traffic jam) to the yoga centre.

And in August. I basically just sat in my room, being stressed, but most of the time staring at the Facebook homepage, doing nothing. Or sometimes wasting my nights away watching Korean drama when I knew there's a pile of journals waiting for me to read.

In September, I feel I'm more settled down. My frown is still here. But I feel myself being more capable to handle it. I'm catching the suitable pace for myself. Although not as steady, sometimes still wobbly, but I'm getting the pace. Some time in November I guess I will be alright.

My supervisor kept asking me how am I coping with the work. Every time all I could say was "I need to keep reading to make myself keep up" and she always gave me that nod which gave me the impression of her being skeptical with my interest in this job and my capability in my job. Which therefore made me yearn to do this really really well. I want to show people that I can do it, really really well. Hence, the stress. Sigh.. And when stress governs my feeling, I can't absorb anything from journals, my mind got tangled up.

I like my job. I like the challenges coming to me. I like the anxiety when things when wrong and I like how we have to deal with the problems. But possibly the way I deal with things in my new job is still not matured yet, hence the skeptical look from my supervisor.

So much grumblings going on here. lol.. It had been piled up since July and I finally vented that out. =P


Ooo! Here's a kit which can relieve stress! lol

Kimchi jjigae crave again

To be frank, I don't like blogging now. Because Facebook has been substituting blogging. I got to post nice photos with captions explaining my feelings and thinking, why do I still need a blog right? What good about blog is that I can express more as compared with FB (Coz i dun post notes in FB), but what if I say I don't want to let people know in detail what I'm thinking? Hehe. Then there's no point in blogging, right?

Ah.. right.. There's one good thing about blog though. I can at least trace back easily what I had posted even back to the ancient years. FB can't do that. FB has all the new events overlapping on top of old events, and hence making it hard (Or impossible?) to search back the photo or article or wall post.

So actually, I wanna list down the Korean restaurants I wanna visit to test their kimchi jjigae and beef BBQ here so that it'll be easy for me to trace back and also I can share my opinions here with Korean food lovers out there, and vise versa, too.

According to the website I found, there are a few restaurants which are highly rated:

1. Bulgogi BBQ House, Kota Damansara, PJ
2. Daorae, USJ Taipan (Tried pork BBQ but it was too long ago, I forgot how it tastes already)
3. Seoul Garden, Bandar Utama
4. Daorae, Desa Sri Hartamas
5. Haeun Khan, Persiaran Barat PJ
6. Kung Jung, Jln Bukit Bintang
7. Dae Jang Gum Korean BBQ, Bandar Puteri Puchong
8. Gomone, Ampang
9. Seoul Korea, Taman Danao Desa (Tried BBQ pork and beef, and kimchi jjigae. Kimchi jjigae was disappointing, BBQ was so-so. But I love the fried peanut with sugar banchan!! =D)

According to recommendation from ajussi (my Korean language classmate who isn't a Korean, obviously):

1. Korea House, SS2
2. A Korean restaurant in Taipan which is not Daorae (Either Dae Jang Gum or Han Woo Ri)
3. A very Korean style Korean restaurant which serve a book of kimchi cabbage in Sri Hartamas I guess (need to ask Ajussi to confirm what's the name.. lol)


I think I'll start with Daorae @ Taipan first. Can't wait to eat kimchi jjigae again!!

Fasten it

Life is too busy and too full of colours until I dun have time to jot them down one by one. For example, preparation of IW. I'm very involved in the camp team! ^^ At first was kinda reluctant to be responsible in so many things one. But after really put my hands in the planning and stuff along with Vincent, it gave a sense of satisfaction =)

And then now also involved in Nuke Off. We are looking for 10K ppl to become fan of the FB page to proof to our government that we don't want nuclear plant in our beloved country. Please support yea! =)

And then gathering with Korean classmates. And gathering with Raleigh people almost at least twice a week. Having a night to myself is almost impossible. But I like this life. Coz I feel very dynamic and energetic when I do all these! Better than staying at home staring at FB wasting my life.. =)

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Okay. Actually the main purpose of blogging today is to talk about what I saw just now in the afternoon.

When I finished washing the cooking utensils and pots with Raleigh ppl at Bukit Jalil, I drove back home. Then at the Puchong-Bukit Jalil road, I saw right in front of my eyes a motorcycle accelerated onto a car's back! And the motor bounced up in the air. So were the motorist and his female partner! And then there were cars emergency braked and produced lots of smoke. It was a mess in front.

So I slowed down and eventually stopped by the roadside since the motor and motorist and the lady were lying on the middle of the road. And people started to came down from the car to help move them away to clear the traffic. So, before the traffic was cleared, I stopped right beside the road, staring at the incident on my right side, with shocked and pale face. I can feel that my face was pale coz I felt dizzy when I saw the blood flushing out from the motorist head. I got blood and wounds phobia... I think I was too dizzy to even drive.

The lady lay head down over the motorist's body, unconscious. The motorist was conscious with half-opened eyes but his head was covered with blood. >.< Even thinking about it makes me dizzy now... With the help of 2 good Samaritans, the cars started to move slowly away from the incident. So I followed, didn't dare to look at the wounded when passed by them.

And then all the way from that incident till my house, I drove 50 km/hr. My legs felt feeble, head still a bit dizzy. Urgh... This is the first accident that happened right in front of my eyes. Last time I only saw crashed cars or body lying beside the road waiting for aid. But this time, I saw it happen right there, right then.

That was really really haunting..

Moral of the story, do not speed. And be sure secure your helmet when you ride a motorcycle. I dun remember whether the motorist got wear helmet or not la.. But according to what I saw (head covered with blood and all) I think it's either he didn't wear helmet or he didn't fasten the belt.

So all motorist out there! That belt can save your life! Fasten it!